19.10.17

LIFE: Struggling to find my 'place on the internet'

I thought it would be way easier to carry on blogging as usual since I started my full time job just under 4 months ago. But reality is, I commute 45 minutes to work and 45 minutes home. The last thing I want to do when I get back from a full day at work is to open my laptop and start typing.



I'm not sure why I feel like this because I have SO many ideas. I have so many draft posts. But I just don't have the motivation or energy to spend more time on a computer. I've realised I actually want to spend my time catching up with friends, nattering to my mum for an hour on the phone and making dinner. Most of all I want to keep myself happy and healthy, and this is usually me with a facemask on watching crappy tv or having a bath long enough to make my toes turn to prunes, let's be real.

I've also really struggled with 'finding my place on the internet' recently. I don't think I fit into the usual stereotype.. (correct me if I'm wrong) but there is that kinda gal which always seems to be everywhere, she has a big circle of friends around her who all have killer dress sense, a gucci marmont bag each and all probably have the same blonde haircut. And this to me is a big struggle... Whilst I sit there with my pjs and facemask on I notice the same girls are spending evening after evening at events, drinking cool looking cocktails and looking oh so candid in their snaps. I have serious envy that I'm not there.. but I also know I haven't worked half as hard as those girls?

I'm really hoping to get myself out of this funk and build a routine, even if it is giving myself one evening a week to really focus on blogging, as after all it is my hobby. But for now, I do feel like I've become very comfortable being a bystander in this huge portion of the world wide web.

Photo by @sarahellen_photography


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  1. Perfect post Kirby! I feel like this all the time and you've described the stereotypical blogger perfectly, You definitely have your place lovely! Love that cheeky picture too, I wonder who took that... 😘

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  2. I feel exactly the same - I think it can feel so hard to fit in when there are so many others doing amazingly well and it's all rather daunting x

    Jenny | LuxeStyle

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  3. Honestly I disagree...there's a place for every kind of girl, and you sound like my kinda gal Kirsty :D You have a gorgeous style. You don't no gucci bag to show you're a rock star in the wardrobe. Love the images with this post too. You have a gorgeous blog and you should be proud :) xx Imogen

    www.imogenrose.co.uk \\ instagram.com/imogenroseig

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  4. Just be yourself. Do what you like to do. I’m sure you can’t be the only one who is in this situation. Your web page seems to be nice.

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  5. KIRBY!!! How did I miss this post!?! So weird how I wrote something v similar a few days after and we were talking about it and hadn't even seen this!!!
    I compeletely get where you are coming from with finding it difficult to find the time between work and wanting to have time to relax and make time for family/friend. But you got this girl, always here to support you and help you in anyway I can!
    ALSO - your sense of style is amazing! You don't need to be like anyone else - the best version of you is you! Super proud of you, you're a star! xxxx

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